Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Some kind of struggle...

Wow....I can't believe it's been over 2 years since I blogged last.

So much has happened! I moved, I moved again. I changed careers (slightly), laughed a lot, cried even more. Became a social butterfly and did a lot of time alone. There have been friend changes, body changes, dating disastrous, fun adventures, good memories with lots and lots of inbetweens. I felt happy, disappointed, excited, betrayed, welcomed, ignored, sought out, lost, motivated...well the list goes on and on. Isn't it amazing how much can happen in just one year....let alone 2 years???

Which brings me to today! The first of the year...another year! And with all the peace and excitement I feel about 2017 and I can't help but track a nagging concern about "What if it's not a year that's different from any other year?" Then I stopped. What does that mean Brooklyn? What does a typical year include for you?

Getting honest with myself I guess it means I have had the normal ups and downs. The normal setbacks and accomplishments. The mountain tops and a lot of time in the valley. Honestly...I guess just normal? lol What ever that means. So I took a bit of time and reflected on the times that were great/fun/memorable/peaceful and the times that were....well weren't. And in that reflection I had to face two things!!! When things were good, and I don't mean exciting and full of adventure, I mean peaceful, memorable, enjoyable...GOOD!...my relationship with God was intimate and my focus was on creating the life I want to live.

Don't worry...this is not a writing example that sites Oprah and Brene' Brown (although I love them both) this really is about HOW DO I WANT LIVE 2017?! And I think that comes with a challenge. A challenge about if I focus in on things I want...what has to become less of a priority, less of a comfort?  And that's the thing about commitment to change and new things...isn't it? With ever transition/change/transformation there's a letting go of the old and familiar in order to have the "space" (emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually) to embrace all the new. So while I'm focusing on new things, new life, new changes I have to equally focus on dying to the old stuff, the unnecessary but safety blankets. AHHHHH!!!!

Well I have always been on that believes ANYTHING WORTH HAVING INVOLVES SOME KIND OF STRUGGLE! The difference that kind of struggle usually brings all that we have ever hoped for and believed in. At least that's what I'm telling myself. lol

Here's to 2017!